Apophatica

Wounded.  Broken.  Imperfect.  Hopeful.  Empowered.  That is who and what we are on any given day at any given moment.  We know that there is work to be done within and without.  Both in our own hearts and minds and outside for the good of humanity.  But we feel stuck, immovable because we aren’t quite “there” yet.  We’re too messed up to be of any good to anybody else.  When we get better we can finally do what we need to, but for now we rest.  Self care is important and rest is a part of that, but we also have to remember that our transformation and healing comes in community – with God and with one another.

If you are feeling like you are too down and out or too imperfect to do any good right now, then chances are you aren’t as bad as you think you are.  None of us is perfect.  None of us is “good enough,” but yet we are.  God creates through broken vessels and brings order to the chaos.  It is not out of nothingness that God brings new life and and continuous change, but out of the swirling chaos of uncertainty and imperfection.  This is where we find God: in the mundanely not-so-good places where we can look at that which wasn’t and see that which is.

Don’t be too hard on yourself.  God isn’t.