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Savor the Pain

Posted in Encouragement with tags , , , on April 21, 2016 by thecrossingchicago

Paul was the penultimate masochist.  His writings are laden with calls to suffer as Christ suffered.  Perhaps in a particularly bleak bout with acedia, Paul even goes as far as to say that “to live is Christ, but to die is gain” (Phil. 1:21).  Numerous other verses make it seem as though we are lesser Christians if we do not endure some form of suffering in our lives.  I doubt Paul was ever accused of being the life of the party.

I’m not a fan of suffering.  I don’t know of anyone who is sane that does either.  We try to avoid it at all costs, and for good reason – it royally sucks.  As much as we loath the idea of having to endure an unbearable experience, we all share the same reality that at least some bitterness in life is inevitable.  None of us is exempt from heartbreak and loss.  Such adversity is merely a part of our membership dues in the club we call the human race.

Any contemplative will tell you that suffering is a choice.  I agree.  Though we are subjected to tribulations, allowing them to break us is a decision that only we can make.  Nobody can make us despair.  It takes our cognizant intentional surrender to the situation and/or the persecutor to classify us as defeated.  Some choose this path and embrace the resulting acrimony and complacent indolence that is reserved only for those who have given up.

But there is something else about suffering beyond the mere survival of hardship: it’s one hell of a teacher.  Each experience – both bitter and sweet – forms us into the people we are today.  How these incidents form us is entirely up to us.  They may teach us that life is cruel and meaningless and that perpetual ennui is the true flavor of life.  Or they may teach us that we can, in fact, overcome even the worst of trials and that we are being formatively prepared for a brighter future.

I cannot honestly say that I have suffered in life.  Sure, I have had hardships and trying circumstances that took an emotional toll in their courses, but nothing that seemed insurmountable.  Or maybe the situation did seem hopeless at the time, but I have difficulty recalling that feeling because I’m now on the other side of the tunnel.  What I do know, though, is that each and every experience that I have had in life has prepared me for who and where I am now. 

“And not only that, but we also boast in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not disappoint us, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit that has been given to us”  (Romans 5:3-5).  Yeah, Paul.  Right on.

The Dogma Files: Adam and Eve

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , , , , , on April 22, 2015 by thecrossingchicago

adam and eveGod is a liar.  The fact that we exist is proof of this reality.  In Genesis 2:16-17 God tells Adam that he can eat from any tree in the Garden of Eden, except for the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil.  God warned Adam that if he ate of that fruit, he would die on that same day.  Guess not.  Maybe God was just kidding.

There are a lot of aspects to Christianity that are really hard to swallow.  There are a lot of stories that just don’t add up and the story of Adam and Eve is probably at the top of this list of untenable narratives.  Can we safely disregard this story then?  Should we just pull a Thomas Jefferson and cut that part out of the Bible?  Shame on the writers of this story for recording lies that would cause us to stumble some 2500 years later.  Or should I say shame on us for reading metaphorical narratives as though they were literal history?

It sounds awfully sacrilegious to call God a liar.  If the Bible is recorded as the exact, inspired, historical, factual Word of God, then God has been caught in a number of lies.  This makes it extremely difficult to follow such an untrustworthy deity.  We don’t have to worry about ditching God though, because God never said the words written in the Bible – not verbatim anyway.  As I’ve said here and elsewhere numerous times, the Bible is compilation of historiographical narratives.  It is the story of a people who are trying to make sense of their existence by recording true myths about existential problems and the plight of humanity.  This is the story of the Jews as seen through human eyes peering into the world of the sacred.

To call something a true myth is not an oxymoron.  Mythologist Joseph Campbell said, “All religions are true but none of them are literal.”  It’s also been said that a myth is something so true that is happens every day.  The stories in the Bible, Adam and Eve being no exception, are myths that help us see into the true nature of God and humanity, if only we have the eyes to see.  With this in mind, what would it look like to view the story of Adam and Eve through this lens and not as a literal event?  Let’s find out.

Although Adam is a proper name today, it wasn’t when this story was recorded.  Adam merely means “human.”  It is a play on words using the Hebrew word adamah which means “earth” from which Adam was formed.  The word for form or make in Akkadian is adamu and the word for red (the color of the clay from which Adam was made) is adam.  Those scripture writers were some witty fellers, weren’t they?

The Jews were in captivity in Babylon in the 6th century BC.  By that time, Akkadian was replacing Sumerian where most in the ancient Akkadian empire spoke both languages.  When the Jews were in captivity, they were influenced by the Akkadian, Babylonian, and Sumerian religions and this is where the creation accounts of Genesis come from.  The Jews’ language was also influenced by these other Ancient Near Eastern cultures.  Ironically, the story of King Sargon who led Akkad to prominence sounded much like the story of Moses.  Sargon was said to be placed in a reed basket as a baby and placed in the river to be left to the mercy of nature.

Now that we’ve freed our minds from the absolute necessity that the story of Adam and Eve must be literal, let’s take a look at the story and see what meaning it holds.  There is a lot of meat here (pun intended) around Eve being formed from Adam and the dominion of humans over animals, but I’ll save the gender roles and ecological discourse for another time.  For now, I want to focus on “The Fall” of humankind.

Adam and Eve had their pick of any food in paradise.  Assumedly, there were numerous types of vegetation and fruit to choose from.  It may be worth noting that there is no account of Adam explaining the rules around the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, but although God laid down the law before Eve was even created, she is aware of what was said.  This shows that Adam and Eve are not to be taken separately.  They represent all of humankind and are given two names so as to represent both genders.

Despite the fact that Eve knew better, she is tricked by the wily serpent (supposedly not yet a “snake” because it hasn’t yet been condemned to slithering on its belly) to eat the fruit of the tree (note again that nowhere in this text does it say “apple” although that’s how the legend has morphed) and have the same knowledge as God.  Adam also ate of it and many misogynists would claim that Adam gets a bad wrap because it was all really Eve’s fault.  It also makes us wonder why the story is told as the Fall of Adam and not the Fall of Eve.  God warned that death would happen on the same day, but we are told that the two went on to have children who would populate the region.  Of course we run into the age-old problem of incest if the offspring of Adam and Eve were having children together, but this is only problematic when the story is taken literally.

Adam and Eve did not physically die from eating the fruit, but as an archetype for humanity, humans do begin an existential death when we try to play God.  When we create false realities about ourselves, others, and cosmology and then try to impose those realities upon others, we die a little every day.  Adam and Eve were completely innocent in every sense of the word.  Not only had they done no wrong, but they were naive.  They had no idea they were naked.  They had no needs nor anxieties.  But when they tried to have knowledge (versus wisdom) they became aware of their lack and ineptitude.  They were no longer “good enough” and felt the need to hide themselves from the essence of all being.

Knowledge is good.  Knowledge is, as they say, power.  But when we seek knowledge as an alternative to wisdom, we begin to climb up out of the well of our depths and into the world of logic.  We lose all sense of mystery and sacredness and begin to see a need for a logical explanation for everything.  Facticity becomes more important than wonder and we lose the ability to experience God.  We leave our hearts behind and live in our heads.  This was the downfall of humankind as brilliantly painted into the tapestry of the myth of Adam and Eve.

When knowledge rules over wisdom dualism is born.  The need for exact reasoning for everything leads to a necessary determination whether something is good or bad.  The realm of wisdom tells us that there is no dualism and that good and bad are different sides of the same coin.  The realm of knowledge tells us that we have to put everything in its logical place to make sense of the universe.  This is why the forbidden fruit grew on the tree of the knowledge of good and evil.  When humankind decided to replace contentment and an awareness for the sacred we began to die.  The very essence of our meaning and purpose, our very existence in fact, and that existence in God became cloudy and we made a self-imposed exodus from paradise to our own Babylon where suffering awaited being born out of our delusions.  Humans are incapable of knowing everything.  When we try to give everything an explanation, we will inevitably be wrong some, if not most, of the time.  The false realities that we create are mere delusions that become attachments, for we are incapable of letting go of our finitude.  Perhaps this is why we have such a problem with mortality and need assurance of eternal life.

The story of Adam and Eve is not the history of our earthly mother and father who brought the wrath of God upon themselves for eating a forbidden fruit.  It is the story of humanity’s struggle to make sense of its own existence.  It is a myth that is so true that it happens every day.  It’s a warning against giving up wisdom for knowledge.  It isn’t an explanation for why bad things happen in the world and why Jesus needed to come as “the new Adam” and save us from ourselves.  But, in a sense it is exactly that, because Jesus pointed the way back to paradise.  He taught the way back to godly wisdom and giving up worrying and competing over resources.  He showed us that we need merely to turn our gaze inward to find that the Garden of Eden not only still exists, but is flourishing with more than we can ever need.  Now that’s a story worth telling.

You Can’t Keep A Good Person Down

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , on May 7, 2010 by pastoralb

Occasionally, we have dreams that are so vivid and surreal that they stay in our minds all day and often disturb us. I had such a dream last night. To make a long story short, in the dream, my five year old son had died and I only discovered it when I found him in the casket. This weird dream haunted me all day and made me think of the parallel worlds that were witnessing the death of another son. Just as many planets in the universe revolve around different suns, so the entire universe is centered around this one Son. God must have looked down upon his son and felt a terrible pain in his heart as he bore the sins of the world on that day at Calvary. At the same time, his earthly mother was watching as the son whom she had given birth to about 30 years before was being mocked, beaten, and nailed to a wooden cross. I can only imagine how both “sets of parents” must have felt at the suffering their son was enduring.

Before you start to think (or maybe it’s too late) that I am writing a sad or macabre message, let me get to the point. The death and suffering, thank God, are not the end of the story. Imagine also the elation that Mary must have felt when she saw her son that she had watched die – walking and well three days later! Imagine the rejoicing there must have been in Heaven when the angels saw that Christ was alive.

I often wonder what happened in that tomb. Did Jesus just open his eyes, sit up, stretch, and walk out? Did angels appear in the tomb and gather around his body and pour life back into him? Did the Father himself come down into that tomb and cradle His son until he opened his eyes? We will not know until we see our Lord face to face, but what is important for now is the fact that he DID get up and walk out of that tomb.

So what does that mean for us? There are the obvious theological ramifications such as defeating death and sin and killing the “old Adam”, giving birth to the “new Adam” so that our eternal life is sealed. But, this also means that no matter how bad a situation seems, there is always hope for a happy ending. No matter what we are enduring now, whether it is a personal matter that is weighing us down or a business that is lagging or just not taking off, we know that there is STILL HOPE. If our body is ailing and we can’t seem to get better, there is STILL HOPE. Don’t think for a second that you are defeated, because as we have seen throughout history and our own individual lives, the story isn’t over until HE says it is. So, hang in there because the dividends of your faith are right around the corner! It’s the third day, the son (sun) is rising, and don’t look now, but that stone in front of the tomb is starting to move!

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